The Beginning:

My name is Lacey Newkirk.  I am married with two  beautiful children, Alex (2 years) and Lauren (11 weeks).    

I have type 2 diabetes. That's what this blog will be about. 

I was diagnosed about 5 years ago and have been avoiding the issue as much as I could. I go through cycles of trying to manage it and trying to not eat sugar and trying to exercise, but always fail to some extent. So, I'm going to blog or confess and try to gain some accountability. Let's hope it works. 

I weigh 211.6 today.  I wear a size 18-20 and am 5 foot 3 inches or so. My eyesight is failing, everything is foggy and  my feet are tingly.  I fear I am on the way to loosing my feat and or dying. I have spouts of depression which contributes to a multiple of problems and just makes the problems I already have worse. 

Oh, I forgot.. I'm only 33 years old.  

These symptoms are not good for someone who is only 33. 

For now, I'll start by saying I went to the Dr. yesterday and he gave me some supplements to help with energy,  depression, sleep and cravings.  Now on day two of these, I do actually feel better.  I walked a mile today, washed the car, went to the bank, and went grocery shopping. I bought all the things he wants me to  eat and am feeling pretty good about the way the day has gone so far. My family has plans to bike the bike trail tonight with some friends who are also trying to loose weight.  It should be fun. 

I look at my 11 week old daughter and cry knowing that if I don't do something, I won't be at her wedding. I won't be able to be there for her like my mom has been there for me. 

I look at my 2 year old son and think about the look that will be in his eyes the first time he sees his first child.  I want to be there for those things. 

As I write this, I cry,  hoping and praying that I can FINALLY make a change in my life.