Kickboxing & Juillian Michaels

AM sugar: 95 (the lowest yet) :) Weight: 208.4   

Total weight loss: 3.2 lbs.

So Last night we (me & friend) went to the kickboxing class at the gym.. For most of the day I wasn't going to go. I had had a terrible day with Alex. He was cranky and tired and wouldn't listen at all.. So, I finally decided to go to the gym just to get away from him for awhile. Boy, was I in for it. The whole class is military style. Example, there's a lot of yelling, getting yelled at, and pushing yourself to the brink of dying!  Not kidding. So, if someone is slacking everyone has to stop the class and do this squat thing that is torture..(for about 3-5 minutes) this happened 3 times last night. It was to the point where I felt like kicking someone ass if they didn't shape up and get it together. You know, like a "sock party" in the army..   Anyway, at one point he got in my face and made me kick higher and hit harder.  Torture!!!  

So after, I giggled my  way to the car, barely seeing straight and finally made it home to then bounce a cranky baby til 1 am.. (taking turns with Chris) I was sooo sore and then to hold her for hours was yet more torture. 

So if I didn't have enough last night, I then did this video this morning by Jillian Michaels. 30 day shred.. UGH!!!  Let's just say, I can hardly walk.. I did however make two big salads and took one to my friend to help keep her motivated. One day at a time. Right?  

Nothing special

Am Sugar: 116     Weight: 208.6  Total Loss: 3

I'm home with Alex today and I'm hoping he doesn't drive me crazy. That may sound strange to some, but he's very demanding and pretty much everything has to go his way. He doesn't drive me to drink, he drives me to eat chocolate.  :) 

Our plan is to make big salads, go pick up Chris for lunch and eat at the park. Then tonight me and my friend are suppose to work out at the gym. Hopefully nothing gets in the way. 

The wheel on my double stroller is broken (cause I got it for $10) but anyway, I ordered the parts and they were so cheap, they are free. So when I  get that and Chris fixes it, I can go walk the mall with both kids by myself at any time. One time I tried putting Lauren in the front pack and pushing Alex and boy was that hard.  We had to switch off with the baby and didn't make it as far. 

Walking

AM sugar: 115    Weight: 209    Weight Loss: 2.6

I really didn't want to, but I walked this morning. My only saving grace was that I finally found my iPod in the car and it still had juice. Although the left side isn't working. 

I had an all time personal record at the Bluffs this morning. 40 minutes and 3 miles. It usually takes me 60 minutes to do 3 miles. Yeah for me. But as I write this my  c-section is hurting. I don't usually notice it until I do something strenuous. But I'm glad I still did it. I was melting!!!  

I spoke to a man on the walk and he was encouraging me to finish and keep up the good work. My response was, "well, I have diabetes and I need to  be around to raise these kids." (Lauren was in the stroller sleeping). You would have thought I kicked him in the stomach or told him I had cancer. (which was touching)  I suppose having diabetes is much more serious for some people. That's part of my problem. It's never been serious enough for me. So, I'm working on that one day at a time. 

Crashing

Am blood sugar: 121   Weight: 209.4 Weight Loss: Same

Well, I've been doing pretty good for the last couple of days. I've been eating salads, meat and veggies for lunch and dinner.  However, I guess I did a little too good today. I had a salad for lunch that was all protein and no carbs. Sounds perfect, but actually I went a little too low. For me (usually in the 200's) 78 is pretty  low. Thank goodness Chris was here. I have a tendency to eat too much sugar when I crash and then peak too high. But he spoke calmly to me and told me to just drink a small amount of juice and rest. When I crash, I get very disorientated and panic.  I feel better now.  I guess I'm going to have to be more careful. Maybe I should of had a couple of crackers with my salad.. 

Day Two

AM blood sugar: 131   Weight: 209.6    Weight Loss: 2 lbs.

Today I had a friend over to talk about photography stuff.. She brought her daughter and we thought her and Alex would play, but they spent most of the time fighting.. After they ate, they did better. My point is that it was harder to concentrate on eating right and drinking water. I'm about 4 bottles behind. The reality is that EVERYDAY will be hectic  no matter what's  going on. I have 2 kids and my own business. There will always be something to keep me from focusing. 

We did ride our bikes last night and it was very hard. As it turns out, it was hard because my tires on the baby trailer were flat..  I was in soooo much pain when I came home.  I'm feeling better today. I think it was the stretching and water intake. 

Tonight if I crave something, I'm going to have a protein shake and some nuts. 

For breakfast I had eggs and bacon. I also boiled a bunch of eggs for my salad later. I made a protein filled salad for me and my friend.  Lettuce, eggs, pine nuts, olives, turkey, blue cheese and oil & vinegar dressing. It was yummy.

Dinner will be beef low mein with veggies (for me) and rice for Chris (if he wants it). 

The Beginning:

My name is Lacey Newkirk.  I am married with two  beautiful children, Alex (2 years) and Lauren (11 weeks).    

I have type 2 diabetes. That's what this blog will be about. 

I was diagnosed about 5 years ago and have been avoiding the issue as much as I could. I go through cycles of trying to manage it and trying to not eat sugar and trying to exercise, but always fail to some extent. So, I'm going to blog or confess and try to gain some accountability. Let's hope it works. 

I weigh 211.6 today.  I wear a size 18-20 and am 5 foot 3 inches or so. My eyesight is failing, everything is foggy and  my feet are tingly.  I fear I am on the way to loosing my feat and or dying. I have spouts of depression which contributes to a multiple of problems and just makes the problems I already have worse. 

Oh, I forgot.. I'm only 33 years old.  

These symptoms are not good for someone who is only 33. 

For now, I'll start by saying I went to the Dr. yesterday and he gave me some supplements to help with energy,  depression, sleep and cravings.  Now on day two of these, I do actually feel better.  I walked a mile today, washed the car, went to the bank, and went grocery shopping. I bought all the things he wants me to  eat and am feeling pretty good about the way the day has gone so far. My family has plans to bike the bike trail tonight with some friends who are also trying to loose weight.  It should be fun. 

I look at my 11 week old daughter and cry knowing that if I don't do something, I won't be at her wedding. I won't be able to be there for her like my mom has been there for me. 

I look at my 2 year old son and think about the look that will be in his eyes the first time he sees his first child.  I want to be there for those things. 

As I write this, I cry,  hoping and praying that I can FINALLY make a change in my life.