Getting Better

AM Sugar: 138 (well, not so good)  Current Weight: 209.6  Total Loss: 2

We rode our bike around the neighborhood last night. 3.5 miles. It may not seem too far, but I was pulling the baby and she's heavy.. I felt it, so that's all that matters.  

I have a wedding tomorrow and it should be interesting to keep my sugar from crashing. I usually am in "work mode" and don't pay attention to eating until it's too late.. So, I'm thinking I won't take that medication tomorrow.. Me running around will be enough to keep it down. 

Getting Through the Day

AM Sugar: 117 Current Weight: 210.6 Lbs. Lost: 1  (from my original post of 211.6)

I did workout (Kickboxing at the gym) last night despite my exhaustion.  I don't hurt today like I did the first time. It really helps to have someone to workout with.. 

My goal today is to just get through the day with Alex with as much patience as possible and not eat from stress..  Good luck to me.

Where to Begin???

AM Sugar: 116 Current Weight: 212 Weight Loss: -1   (meaning I GAINED!!!) 

Well, I suppose we could start with me getting depressed last Thursday about not loosing weight fast enough.  That and maybe I'm going to start my period. (haven't yet, so don't know what's up) 

Anyway, I went off the wagon. I started the day with toast, then cereal and so on with the  carbs.. ALL DAY..  I wouldn't say I went completely off the deep end, but I did eat some chocolate and snuck some chocolate as well on a different day. Yesterday I started my day with M&M's.  Not a good breakfast.. (please no comments about this, I know it was bad, I'm not stupid)  But there are times in life when a chemical imbalance takes over all knowledge and reason. I suppose this is where "food addiction" comes in. 

I got a letter in the mail telling me that my thyroid was over active.  Hey maybe this is my problem.. No... I went to the Dr. yesterday and he explained that in fact it should be causing me to loose more weight.. What??? Anyway, so I'm having an ultrasound on it today and for now he just has me on a natural cream to regulate it. He said the "meds" would make me gain. So, we'll see how the cream does over about 6 months or so.. 

Today I went to the dentist and then to visit Chris at work. I was there about 3 minutes and then in mid conversation, I said, "I'm crashing, I'll be right back" rudely leaving the conversation with Chris' co-worker and trying very quickly to make it upstairs to the kitchen. When I got there, I was pretty much going down quickly. His boss was in front of the cups and I had to interrupt him to get me a cup (for juice or something) and could barely speak to have him had me a cup.. It was a little embarrassing. Another co-worker grabbed my arm thinking I was going to fall over. There was no juice, so we grabbed the first thing - root beer.. Not a great choice, but better than fainting. The boss also gave me a granola bar with peanuts which seemed to help.. This whole crashing thing is very tiresome. 

I went back downstairs to be with Chris and recover and began talking to his office mate about the Zone Diet. He is a big time cyclist and very in-tuned with his body and what it needs. It's pretty much about the Glycemic Index and keeping a regular blood sugar all day. From what he was describing a typical dinner was, we aren't that far off.. Protein and veggies. It's just the right ones together. 

Anyway, I'm going to give it a try.. 

So I had a couple of bad days. But the fact remains the same. I still want to be there for my children.. No one can love them like me or their dad..  So, there's always that...  

I also made an appt. to see the eye Dr. My driving vision hasn't been so great.. It's depth problem. It almost always has, that's why I don't read.. I can't see the words from the page.. Very annoying. Anyway, it never hurts to check..